Description
Her expression sags in the manner of one weary from a thousand mile journey
without sleep. But her movements are steady and his eyes tell another story.
The expression on his face is not fatigue, but a despair both deep and
profound. Even when she smiles, her raised eyebrows and rosey cheeks can only
present a mockery of joy, for the look in her eyes never matches the act.
Yet she is fit, her arms and legs posessing the firm and sinewy tone of a
mature adventurer. She is somewhat ugly, with oddly mannish features.
However, her complexion is smooth, her eyes are lusterous lusterous
eyes and strong features. Her unkempt hair and rumpled, haphazard clothing
do nothing to improve her looks. Her instruments are of varied quality, but
they all have a rather unloved look to them.
Role
Edges, The Future and stuff
Added Thu Feb 15 21:29:27 2007 at level 51:
I took some edges. I wanted to avoid the fiend one because I'm already
too reliant on that, but I ran out of other options.
My goals for the moment:
Take more risks, politically. So far I've been cautious. Too bad Arcibu
I took some edges. I wanted to avoid the fiend one because I'm already too
reliant on that, but I ran out of other options. And besides, it's not like
I'm already too deadly or anything. I tried to pick edges that make good role
sense. Librarian because I'm a scion, Stoneheard because well, that's Edimus
I took some edges. I wanted to avoid the fiend one because I'm already too
reliant on that, but I ran out of other options. And besides, it's not like
I'm already too deadly or anything. I tried to pick edges that make good role
sense. Librarian because I'm a scion, Stoneheard because well, that's Edimus
all over. The knell one because requiem is Edimus's favorite song.
I had so many edge picks I ran out, so some like scrutiny are just blah as
far as role goes, but oh well.
Here are my goals for the moment:
*Log in more
I haven't logged in enough recently.
*Take more risks, politically.
So far I've been cautious. Too bad Arcibu decided not to join or I could
take a risk on him. I'll have to figure this out. I like Kanaev, but I should
pick a fight with him or something.
*whine a little less.
I'm not as whiney as some but I've done too much complaining about people not
being sporstmanlike. Whether I'm right or not, it's just stupid to complain.
If anyone sees me say stupid crap feel free to smite me as a reminder.
*Write more stuff
I haven't written anything in a while. I should.
*Do Prophecy stuff
I need to log in more for this to work, but I want to get other scions
interested in some spooky night stuff. I love running around fighting
people, but I feel like I'm missing out on the Scion plotline and that's
pretty much my own fault for not doing it.
*Stay alive
Keep fighting the way that I enjoy,but be a little more cautious.
Update: Eshval, Advisor, Plans
Added Wed Jan 24 13:19:05 2007 at level 51:
A lot has happened to Edimus since the last update. She has become Advisor,
gotten a bunch of con (thanks) and done a bunch of stuff. She's going to try
reviving her old plans for world destruction (muahaha), though she doesn't
expect Kanaev to be too interested.
She's spoken with Eshval a lot recently, which is hard since Eshval is a
reminder that she couldn't let go of her life, even though she hates it.
Around Eshval, she always feels awkward, ugly and stupid. She carries a
constant fear that at any moment Eshval will realize how worthless Edimus is
and curse her somehow. At the same time, she feels inexplicably drawn the
vampyre queen. In other words, Edimus feels conflicted around Eshval.
Eshval told her to preserve her life some, and though that request is at odds
with what she wants, her fear of Eshval means she has been playing it
somewhat safer. Though there are still times when she rushes headlong into
dangerous situations, relishing the approach of oblivion.
OOC, I want to make things interesting for the other scions by sparking up
more prophecy stuff than has been happening, find solid characters to
recommend. I'm trying to play for a minimum of a couple hours every other
day. I've been fortunate to have more time to play lately, so hopefully this
will continue until Edimus's eventual con death (or age death if I suddenly
become supa-leet and cautious). I also want to find an excuse to talk to
other cabal leaders more, since I like knowing my enemies, but I haven't
thought of any good reason Edimus would care to do that. Also, I owe Eshval a
more complimentary work, but sincere compliments are very hard to work into
Edimus's role and I haven't thought of any good angle to do that.
Leadership
Added Thu Dec 28 22:14:27 2006 at level 51:
Edimus met with Eshval, and they spoke about leadership. She says he must
send a missive expressing interest in living on further. There is nothing
Edimus would desire less than longer life. That said, his masochistic streak
is as strong as ever. He hates himself, and views longer life as a
punishment, perhaps one he deserves. By very virtue of hating it so much it
becomes something he seeks to inflict on himself. It validates his view that
no matter what it is you want out of life, even if it's death, you can't get
it. And thus he attempts to accept leadership.
Edimus sent a missive accepting that some part of him must want to be alive
given that he cannot force his hand.
As a player, I would enjoy a con quest or leadership position however it can be
worked in.
Plans Update
Added Tue Oct 31 13:32:33 2006 at level 51:
Asked Yanni for help with the drow, Baerlias for help with the Ccrul'gra
Avt and ogbuk both for war with akan and Darsylon. Seffar also is interested in playing a part.
Yuvralin may posibly believe me if I give him a signal that the empire is ripe for an attack.
Master of Mayhem submission
Added Thu Oct 19 15:12:44 2006 at level 51:
Edimus created the master of mayhem song as part of a deal struck to get him
out of a pit the Master of Mayhem requested a song praising him that was
"light and full of praise" Edimus is not very good at that, but she did his
best, though Edimus's idea of praise and compliments comes off as sarcasm and
mockery. she realizes that his skill with compliments is not that great, but
she can't readily tell the difference between sarcastic mockery and sincere
flattery.
Arcibu
Added Tue Feb 13 18:15:00 2007 at level 51:
I think Arcibu would probably make a good scion, but Edimus can't really
recommend someone like that. Not to Kanaev anyhow.
Discussion with Nhionil
Added Wed Oct 18 22:11:56 2006 at level 51:
He didn't trust me. I will try to get someone trustworthy. A paladin perhaps.
He said elven wine would tempt him, I will make sure that whoever speaks with him brings some.
I will attempt to speak directly with the Ccrul'gra at another time.
Update - promise
Added Sun Oct 15 20:38:48 2006 at level 51:
I want an epic poem written about my benevolence worthy of the Lyceum.
'I am the god of deception and wisdom. It should be light and full of praise.'
Grand Plan notes 1
Added Fri Oct 13 13:12:04 2006 at level 51:
Here are some notes to myself about the plan Edimus is hatching.
Loose plan:
Drow + Calandryl Necromancer Destroy Darsylon
Grazzur + Duergar + orcs + bugbears destroy akan / voralion
An army of devils + jaettes destroy/distract the fortress
Dragons + witchwood purebloods + Outlanders destroy galadon
Arboria Liches + Tower of Sorcery + Silent Tower archmages? + Thar aciacians?
destroy/distract village
Dra'Melkhur + Xoltrindar take/destroy Arkham
Ents + outlanders + jade dragon + yellow dragon destroy Seantryn
Scions loose Ccrul'gra from Maethien
Open questions:
Cragstone? Nexus? Tir-Talath? Hillcrest? Empire? Hamsuh? Felar? Evermoon?
Vague ideas
hook horrors + cavefisher distract cragstone
Velkyn oloth + ???? takes everymoon
Empire + Corte vs hamsuh + KotR + Balator mutal annihilation?
Tir-talath first in path of Ccrul'gra from Maethien?
Talk to Grazzur Ur'Kal, talk to Ghaelek, talk to Orcs.
Talk to Teth Azaleth leaders
Talk to Calandryl necromancer
Talk to Tiamat, great Crimson, Nightmare in Organia
Learn more about cursed dale
Learn if Hillcrest/Tir Talath have enemies
Learn more about Corte
Find out how the barrier in Maethien is built.
Plans for the future
Added Thu Oct 12 20:50:28 2006 at level 51:
Edimus is hatching a plan to bring about the destruction he seeks.
The first step of this plan involves speaking with the Ccul'gra in the Ruins of Maethien. (hint hint)
Scions and Sex
Added Thu Oct 12 16:07:32 2006 at level 51:
Edimus changed much since the last update. Before he was an independant man,
now he is a Scion woman. One of these conditions was intentional, the other a
mistake.
His transformation as a woman came, as most such transformations do, as a
result eating sirine grapes. He purchased some grapes with the intention of
tricking others into eating them. However, he ran low on food and was near
the farm outside of balator where grapes can be found. He placed the grapes
in his backpack, and the next time he was hungry thought to eat some grapes.
Unfortunately, despite making an effort to be sure he was eating the right
ones, he managed to eat the sirine grapes.
Most people would be upset, and of course, Edimus is unhappy with this
change. Yet to him it is ultimately just one more misfortune amidst a
lifetime of tragic events. Eventually he will grow accustomed to his new
body, and indeed his personality may change. He may even take to calling
himself Edimuselle. For the present, however, he is not comfortable with his
body or anything else having to do with the change and this is reflected in
his behavior. As for the grapes, his interest in getting others to eat them
is slightly enhanced now that he's fallen victim to them
The other change, that of induction into the Fold is potentially further
reaching. So far, little has come of it for him but death. On his first eve
the scepter was taken and he expended much time and blood in an effort to
recover the scepter. He did this to prove his dedication, but he does not
intend to throw away his life quite so haphazardly in the future. Not because
he values his life anymore than he ever has, but because now he has a goal to
reach. While still eager to see oblivion for himself, his desire to see the
world lieing in ruin brings just a vestige of self-preservation where there
had been little before.
As the corrupting forces of dark magic work on his spirit, he will become
more ominous and speech, and more prone to lieing. Presently he speaks
tragically and depressingly, but does not try to incite fear. His tendency
towards brutal honesty about his own shortcoming will abate some, though he
will continue to use it as a way to offfbalance his foes. Few expect the
attitude he expresses and it has brought him advantages in the past.
His not-quite-friendships with the village are a thing of the past, and to
Edimus this is just what one is to expect out of life.
Update: Scions
Added Thu Oct 5 22:34:31 2006 at level 51:
Have applied to the Scions. Before applying Edimus was relatively friendly
with the villager. This cordial facade serves two purposes. First, it will
cause some confusion when Edimus turns on them, secondly it reinforces in him
the idea that no friendship is lasting or that any stable relationships can
really be formed. Fighting people that previously were, if not friends, at
least comfortable neutrals is part of the self-sabotage Edimus practices.
The reason for his wanting to join is essentially that he's gotten sick of
the world in general. More than just wanting to end his own life, he
spitefully wants everyone's lives to end. This is largely motivated by
subconscious envy. The Scions may want to control the world, but Edimus
simply sees this as a way to bring the world to ruin. He doesn't have much
faith that any of the Scions will be kept around when the Kul'gra come to
dominance.
Small Update
Added Tue Sep 19 19:15:34 2006 at level 51:
Small update
Forgot to mention that I'm not practicing any songs that give +morale.
It just doesn't seem role-appropriate.
Reference/Key Words
Added Wed Aug 9 16:41:28 2006 at level 1:
Summary:
A man permanently depressed about everything, who always sees the darkest
side of everything and not only has no hope, but thinks hope itself is
stupid. A nihilist, philosophically.
Align Evil: He's not especially violent or overtly cruel, but he does like
sharing his misery with others. He could almost be neutral except for his
total lack of respect for ethics, which means he does bad things. He has some
sense of compassion, but it's rare that he judges anyone else's situation to
be worse than his own, so usually he doesn't care what happens to anyone
else.
Ethos Neutral: He thinks law is pointless, but just trying to break it down
is just as pointless. Personality-wise he's more orderly in that he's
somewhat predictable in his reactino to things, though he does sometimes
enjoy causing confusion in others.
Sphere Envy: He doesn't feel or act overtly envious, but envy does influence
his actions. It's why he tries to spend time around people with strong
feelings (though those feelings disgust him). His conscious relationship to
envy is that he thinks it's the most absurd thing in the world. After all,
since there is no meaning or purpose to anything, it's just that much more
senseless to care about what someone else has.
Human: He's not wild about being a human. There's something depressing about
being the most commonplace race in the world.
Male: He's despaired of any woman liking him, and he scowls at displays of
toughness, considering himself weak and ineffectual (though he's really as
capable as any other bard).
Bard: He doesn't like music, but he's good at it, and it helps him to make
others unhappy. He really shouldn't play the songs that are strongly focused
on good feeling (Charismatic prelude, Adagio, Chant of resiliance, Anthem of
Resistance, Bagatelle of Bravado and maybe Fantasia of Illusion), but I
think I'll make the excuse that he plays them ironically (see background) and
practice some of them anyway, since I'm not up to the task of playing a bard
without Anthem of Resistance.
Religion: He has no particular religious beliefs, at least at the start. He
has some appreciation of Muuloc's ideals, but he doesn't hasn't found any
reason to bother worshipping.
Cabal: He seeks no cabal, but if someone invited him he'd probably shrug his
shoulders and accept. If this happens, he'll probably be kicked out rapidly
for failing to show interest in the cabal's goals.
Background Story
Added Wed Aug 9 16:40:16 2006 at level 1:
Edimus Fraighn is the very picture of melancholy, and always has been. On the
day of his birth he didn't cry, he mourned. From that accursed day onward,
Edimus has led a life of manifest displeasure. As a small child, he rarely
smiled, and when even the most minor of mishaps befell him, he'd bawl for
hours. His parents were too busy with his ten younger and four older siblings
to focus on his complaints. Not that it would've helped anyway, since being
inconsolable was something of a specialty of his.
Still, he was fed and clothed adequately and never particularly mistreated,
except occasionally by his elder brothers, but there's nothing unusual about
that. In fact, his many siblings mostly left him alone, and treated him as
well as they treated each other. He was excluded from playing with them
fairly often, but they can hardly be blamed for that given his pentient
saying precociously depressing things, or just wailing for uncontrollable
wailing.
While his experience of childhood was sorrowful, his teenage years came as a
particularly unpleasant surprise. As he grew older, he grew out of crying and
into sullen moping. He became quite good at this, and for quite some time it
was rare to see him doing anthing else. Why the sorrow that he felt as a
child had advanced into misery even he didn't really understand, but as a
cascade of insecurities and adolescent misadventures descended upon him, he
fell quite readily into abject despair.
His despair isolated him and he took to walking alone for many hours. On one
such walk he discovered existential angst, which he found suited him well.
Indeed, like a paladin to self-righteousness (as he'd probably put it), it
was the closest thing to a calling he would ever feel. And though he hadn't
the capacity for such introspective and philosophical explorations as a
child, his now blossoming young mind opened up to many ideas, none of them
remotely cheerful or uplifting.
Instead, the philosophy that he found suited his mood was a sort of nihilism.
If there were such a thing as dismal enthusiasm, that is the emotion with
which he pounced upon the idea that all life is without purpose or reason.
From there he concluded that all accomplishments are illusory or futile, that
all morality is inherently vacuous, and that death's inevitable approach is
the most gladsome thing a person can expect out of his existance. Even to
this day it is these fundamental concepts that rule his thoughts.
Having begun this journey into emotional flagellation, his reaction was to
begin writing poetry. To this practice he added the habit of leaving his work
about for others to find. Now true misery doesn't actually love much of
anything at all, but company still holds a certain appeal. Thus it was that
Edimus found, not pleasure, but a certain bleak satisfaction in seeing his
own malaise reflected in the expressions of others.
Of course, when he first started writing the poetry it garnered nothing but
mockery and laughter. In response, he developed a habit of mockery himself,
but instead of simple affrontery he found a more subtle method. He would
participate in activities with others, pretending to be having fun. Then, as
the activity went on, he'd become more and more animated in his exuberance
until the other participants rea