Description
Homely is a word that comes to mind when looking at this gnome.
Short, being a given of his race, he still somehow manages the
slouch of someone who worries his head won't fit through a door
while also standing as tall as possible. Eyes ever so slightly
crossed behind somehow too-small spectacles, themselves perched
precariously on a bulbous nose. His patchy thin beard sports a
small streak of grey, giving the impression that a bit of some
creamy soup is being saved for later just under his lower lip.
His garb, while not matching in the sense of fashion, is
otherwise impeccably put together, from the darkened metal helm
upon his head down to the boots made from the hide of some beast.
Strange bandages are wrapped around his arms with a grey hide
bracer on each wrist, patches of green moss providing a dash of
color. He wears a pale gray, torso-length robe, its colors
faded long ago. A few small pouches are bound tightly to the
strange belt at his waist. While he gives off no presence as a
fighter, he wields a small knife that appears to be dripping blood.
Role
My Florjen
Added Tue May 25 04:35:07 2021 at level 47:
Oh my dear, my sweet little pumpkin,
By this time tomorrow I will be gone.
My last breath will thank fate for bringing us together. One
would lucky to share even a fraction of our time. My heart
overflows with gratitude and love.
Everything in its right place.
You have walled yourself off for so long. I beg you release
any guilt you feel. It will not serve you. It will not serve
you, and it will not save me.
I've made so, so many mistakes I wish I could take back but now
I must look forward. And so must you.
Channel your focus, your commitment, your drive.
Speak to me in your dreams, write to me in this book.
I wish you a life well-lived.
I wish you the joy of laughter.
I wish you the embrace of love.
Goodbye, my sweet little pumpkin.
For you
Added Thu May 27 01:06:45 2021 at level 48:
Day of the Bull, 19th of the Month of the Heat
This is the first time I have written in this book. I don't
know what to write.
Day of Thunder, 12th of the Month of Nature
It has been a few years since I tried this. You asked me to
do it and I haven't. I'm sorry. I will do better.
Day of Freedom, 13th of the Month of Nature
It has been but a day and nothing has changed, yet here I
write. I pity any who come after and read this drivel.
15th, Month of Nature
Today I read your words over and over. You always had a gift
for it and I never told you how much I admired it.
15th, Month of Long Shadows
Another year gone. Another year without you. I can keep hold
as I keep everything in its box, everything in its place. I
can keep calm and find peace in this.
+ The Fever Dream
Added Wed Jun 2 22:25:23 2021 at level 51:
You came to me. I saw you, my dear. Without the strength
to to even put my feet beneath me, I lay there on the musty
stone of that cursed castle, the skittering of skeletons
breaking the silence between my labored breaths.
It was there, there that you came to me. I could not cry
out, fatigued as I was, the disease still burning through
my veins. For over a week I lay there, unable to eat,
drink or even move. Death passed me by a thousand times
yet something kept him at bay.
I could feel your presence, even as my eyes were locked on
the same array of insect carcasses and dust inches in front
of my face. A warmth? A sound? No, I have no words for
it. For you. For you were there. This I know.
I have no recollection of how long you stayed with me but
I cherish each and every moment. It is that shook something
loose in me. Yes, everything in its right place. There is
that freedom through structure and order, but I will work
towards expressing that freedom, whether that be through
word or deed.
There I was, a breath from death, and yet I felt such
peace. It is that peace and fulfillment I wish for all as
each finds and fulfills their role in the world.
I long to feel you near me again. Would that the patterns
allow it.
I will continue to use this book. Thank you.
The Patterns
Added Thu Jul 1 23:37:57 2021 at level 51:
Words have never been my strong suit, love, but I'm slowly
finding evermore clarity and focus through my practice with
this book. Yet again, you have shown me wisdom far beyond
my own and this, among countless other reasons, is why I am
forever grateful that you turned your eye to me so long ago.
Not only have I become a magistrate, but was promoted to a
position that watches over all four protected cities. They
call it a Provincial Magistrate. I've found fulfillment in
serving my watch, cleaning the streets and even putting out
fires. The Provost is a dark warrior-mage whom I hope
never feels the need to take any piece of my soul into her
unholy weapon. It gives me a shiver any time I witness it.
So much talk of chaos and freedom from the tree hangers and
yet those illusions fall away as you step back and see the
patterns, each orderly in its own way. The savage that
finds the same trails to walk, prey to hunt, clothes to
wear does not see the order in this so-called freedom.
There is freedom in Order, freedom in structure.
One freedom I never wish and that is freedom from you in my
heart. I can never take back the actions and inactions of
the past, though I can learn from them and not repeat what
has been so painful all these years. Time after time, you
teach me, lead me, and feed me.
To the beginning
Added Mon Jul 12 00:32:57 2021 at level 51:
'Never again.'
I spoke those words and acted on them far too late.
You warned me. Damn it all, you warned me of dangers I
refused to see. It is vital I speak these truths because
every second I keep silent is another moment I do not
learn from them.
So how did it happen? Let me remember, however much I
wish to forget.
Transmutation drew me in. Wanting control. Helping others
find their more specialized selves. Accentuating strengths
and mitigating weakness. So few dare learn those magics.
Never very precise with my own transmutations, I proved
I could nevertheless create powerful weaves, if a bit
unstable. So desperately I wanted that control and worked
tirelessly to find it, even as my new family begged for
my attention. Was always 'one more cast' and staying late
in the guild while you dutifully stayed home.
When Gnojen was born, I saw in him someone who would be
greater than me. Greater than I could ever be. I would
find his weaknesses and erase them, creating a life for
him unimaginable to me.
You knew precisely what I wanted without me even telling you.
The mad sculptor
Added Sun Jul 18 21:38:01 2021 at level 51:
Gnojen, my son, our son. What was Gnojen slowly deteriorated
to me and, though it pains me to admit, he became like a lump
of clay to me. I must take pause as I see that evolution
once more through hindsight.
I distanced myself farther and farther from father while I
increasingly hyperfocused on the metaphorical hammer and
chisel of the weaves I used upon him. Stubborn to varying
degrees of success and failure, I thought that triumph was
inevitable, given enough time and enough experimentation.
I wanted to make him better than me, make him better than
himself. I wished to make him perfect, something that is both
illogical and impossible as there is no such thing. While the
patterns dictate everything in its right place, no perfection
can truly be be found.
Surely I had the best intentions in mind. Surely keeping him
from harm's way was in his best interests. I would never wish
harm on him, after all.
You once told me 'Let him fall, Florjen.' and I thought you mad.
Little did I know the madness I felt was instead festering
within me. I dismissed what you said that day, as I did on far
too many other days. I was wrong.
The Next Watch
Added Thu Sep 23 04:00:17 2021 at level 51:
My love, words have never been my strong point and I know I have
disappointed you again and again. You forever have given me
lessons that enriched my life. I wish beyond all else that I could
take back what happened that die and hope the the centuries since
could offer even a sliver of the thanks you deserve for all you
selfishly shared.
In this, now, is yet another lesson. For years I would try to
write for you, for me. It comes so simply to others and yet my mind
freezes and I swallow myself in the madness of inaction. A prison
of my own making and surely it looks to the layman as though there
is no door keeping me within. I am not sure how to explain to you
the frustration and pain I have given myself over the matter.
I hope the Spire is stronger. Provost was never a position I wished
and yet I worked to find and bolster the ties between the various
Magistrates, the Spire, and the Law itself.
I will see you soon, my Love.
Hold Gnojen close and prepare for a monstrous embrace from my
willowy turkey arms.
The Angry Turtle
The Pirate Garrr-goyle
Your Florjen
PK Wins
May 17, 2021|Lv 27|The Open Plains|Ghrumdhror vs 4: [51] Mojabosombo (10%), [51] Geruscleudo (37%, claw), [51] Nigbyran (47%), [27] Florjen (4%)
May 27, 2021|Lv 48|Outside Hamsah Mu'tazz|Miraja vs 4: [48] Florjen (2%), [51] Kira (88%, defilement), [51] Gharanja (1%), [51] Schnocknog (6%)
May 28, 2021|Lv 51|BattleRager Village|Teithiwr vs 3: [51] Florjen (1%), [51] Kira (79%, iceball), [51] Asaigai (19%)
May 28, 2021|Lv 51|BattleRager Village|Ckhjorh vs 3: [51] Asaigai (26%, slash), [51] Florjen (0%), [51] Kira (73%)
May 29, 2021|Lv 51|The Spire of the Blood Tribunal|Ckhjorh vs 2: [51] Florjen (2%), [51] Kira (97%, slash)
May 31, 2021|Lv 51|The Ruins of Ostalagiah|Teithiwr vs 4: [51] Florjen (0%), [43] Barl (21%), [47] Armanelia (1%), [51] Kira (76%, bleeding)
Jun 2, 2021 |Lv 51|Galadon|Kelvaeth vs 1: [51] Florjen (100%, slash)
Jun 5, 2021 |Lv 51|The Spire of the Blood Tribunal|Bluzgron vs 2: [51] Florjen (5%, bite), [51] Kira (94%)
Jun 5, 2021 |Lv 51|Galadon|Mgizu vs 2: [51] Kira (85%, chop), [51] Florjen (14%)
Jun 5, 2021 |Lv 51|Galadon|Ikorix vs 3: [51] Ytraeos (18%, torments), [51] Kira (11%), [51] Florjen (69%)
Jun 26, 2021|Lv 51|The Spire of the Blood Tribunal|Mafussadin vs 3: [48] Faebi (21%), [51] Terrowin (21%), [51] Florjen (56%, slash)
Jul 10, 2021|Lv 51|The Grove|Moii vs 2: [51] Florjen (0%), [51] Kira (100%, iceball)
Jul 11, 2021|Lv 51|Grinning Skull Village|Burzbog vs 2: [51] Florjen (24%), [51] Kira (75%, iceball)
Jul 25, 2021|Lv 51|Dragon Tower Ruins|Laelitharl vs 3: [51] Flobson (0%), [51] Florjen (0%), [51] Vanpeera (100%, divine power)
Jul 27, 2021|Lv 51|Galadon|Teithiwr vs 2: [51] Kira (5%), [51] Florjen (94%, hunger)
Aug 16, 2021|Lv 51|The Ruins of Ostalagiah|Teithiwr vs 2: [51] Florjen (24%), [51] Galathaniel (75%, energy discharge)
Aug 17, 2021|Lv 51|The Spire of the Blood Tribunal|Teithiwr vs 1: [51] Florjen (100%, chomp)
Aug 19, 2021|Lv 51|Galadon|Ilaistrea vs 2: [51] Florjen (22%), [51] Teithiwr (77%, bleeding)
Aug 19, 2021|Lv 51|Galadon|Teithiwr vs 2: [51] Ilaistrea (34%), [51] Florjen (65%, slash)
Aug 25, 2021|Lv 51|Galadon|Geruscleudo vs 1: [51] Florjen (100%, hit)
Aug 25, 2021|Lv 51|Galadon|Dhorvadh vs 1: [51] Florjen (100%, chop)
Sep 2, 2021 |Lv 51|Galadon|Teithiwr vs 2: [51] Ahinu (66%, slash), [51] Florjen (33%)
Sep 5, 2021 |Lv 51|Silverwood|Terrowin vs 2: [51] Teithiwr (92%, pound), [51] Florjen (7%)
Sep 6, 2021 |Lv 51|The Spire of the Blood Tribunal|Teithiwr vs 3: [51] Zelvira (59%, piercing venoms), [48] Roggha (15%), [51] Florjen (24%)
Sep 6, 2021 |Lv 51|The Outlander Refuge|Aych vs 2: [51] Florjen (29%, bite), [48] Roggha (70%)
Sep 7, 2021 |Lv 51|The Underdark Sea|Teithiwr vs 2: [51] Florjen (20%), [51] Roggha (79%, noxious force)
Sep 17, 2021|Lv 51|BattleRager Village|Teithiwr vs 3: [51] Quentin (0%), [51] Celathi (5%), [51] Florjen (94%, KB)
Sep 20, 2021|Lv 51|Forest of Prosimy|Mojabosombo vs 2: [47] Geofthath (37%, retching and nausea), [51] Florjen (62%)