Description
Suillesnu exudes a refined grace, one that moves in harmony with his
surroundings making him seem a part of things, not just among things. He is
athletically built, so his gentle grace is not devoid of strength. Rather,
his lithe form gives the impression of a jaguar ready to pounce. Suillesnu's
flowing, wavy hair cascades down his back like strands of moonlit silver. The
radiant locks shimmer with a subtle hint of emerald green, reminiscent of the
forest foliage. They are adorned with intricate braids woven with delicate
woodland flowers. He has almond-shaped eyes the hue of the clearest azure
sky. Framed by long, dark lashes, they possess a depth that sparkles with
life unbound. His skin is fair and flawless, and his complexion bears a
gentle sun-kissed glow. Suillesnu is adorned with intricate elven tattoos,
delicate and artfully designed, they trace patterns of intertwining vines and
leaves across his shoulders and down his arms.
Role
My early thoughts on Life (part 1)
Added Wed Jul 19 11:16:51 2023 at level 40:
It is my goal to live fully.
When my mortal days are gone and my soul slips down the river of eternity, I
wish to be able to say I drank deeply of everything Life had to offer. I want
my face to have known the warm sun, my feet the soft grass, my ears the songs
of birds and men, my eyes the glory of the wilds. I wish my mind to have
stretched and grown, to have known the philosophies and ideas of many
cultures and to have sought truth. I wish my heart to know joy, friendship,
and love. I wish to experience all the many gifts Life offers.
It is my goal to live rightly.
Of what worth would it be to sate your hunger while another starves? It is
said that happiness is not real unless it is shared. So let me live a life
that does good, not harm. Let me ease the suffering of others. Let me
preserve Life, and help others to grow under the light of the Sun.
But how is one to live fully and rightly?
The world is a place of few absolutes. In fact, I would venture to say that
to leave room in your heart for ambiguity and nuance is to leave the
necessary room for Light and Life. I am wary of anyone who speaks with too
much certainty. After all, day does not fall straight to night without the
twilight of evening.
If certainties lead to darkness, then it is Judgment that leads to light. We
must question everything, always careful to choose the best path we can.
What lead me to this path?
I was born to the Ar'dan Sulensulu people. We struck a deal. For decades we
fought the unholy legions of an anti-paladin general. Much life was lost on
both sides, and it was decided by our elders that, "for the greater good" our
most accomplished warrior would be sacrificed to the unholy weapon of the
anti-paladin upon the winter solstice each year. In trade for this, there
would be no further bloodshed. To my eternal heartbreak, my father was among
the sacrifices. He was lost to me, and to the world - his Life snuffed by
cruelty and fear.
When time ameliorated the blinding pain in my heart, I found I had many
questions. It was true that, on balance, more lives were saved by the deal
between our people and the general. It was also true that the general grew in
dark, unholy power in a manner free of any risk. Both good and evil were left
to realize whatever potentials they may, both sides gained and lost something
from the arrangement.
So was the deal right or wrong?
First, I must confess that my judgment is clouded by my grief. It is easy to
make peace with sacrificing one life for the "greater good" when you don't
know the person. Likewise, it is hard to understand the benefit when it is
your father's soul trapped in the unholy weapon of an anti-paladin. I think
though that in this case it would have been better that more of us met our
inevitable doom in combat, living free, than that we were bound in such a
dark pact.
My early thoughts on Life (part 2)
Added Wed Jul 19 11:24:23 2023 at level 40:
How do I know that my Judgment is correct?
I do not, actually. I think Judgment is a matter of balancing the heart and
the mind. And I think this is why Mercy is so important. Those in the Light
must be free to make mistakes, else they cannot grow. Thus we must be
merciful to those who come to the wrong conclusions.
Are any sins beyond Mercy?
Another difficult question. Something tells me the answer is no. Though, I
find it hard to find Mercy for those who corrupt life like the conjurer,
anti-paladin and the necromancer.
When is it time for Mercy, and when is time for Justice?
I believe there should be great Mercy for those who are trying to do right.
After all, don't we all fall short of the goal from time to time? Take for
example an elf who uses the magic of conjuration. Though their craft is an
affront to Her, to Life itself, it is unlikely a typical elf set out to do
harm. In fact, they likely learn the magic in an attempt to do what they
Judged was helpful. This elf would be, to my mind, most deserving of Mercy.
At the same time, if a dark-elf sought the magic of conjuration they would be
using twist, awful magic in the pursuit of wickedness. It would surely be
right to meter Justice for those actions, using Mercy only to temper the
inevitable, necessary culling of their life.
And yet, even as I write these words I am struck by arrogance to even think a
mortal such as I could be possess the wisdom to Judge these things correctly.
I must be cautious on this path.
Where shall I, Suillesnu, go to begin?
Perhaps the hardest thing in Life is to accept the burden of these questions
and still find joy. It is so easy to get wrapped up in what is inside our
minds and forget what is outside to experience. The gifts of Life are found
in nature, thus I seek a place in the Refuge to not only experience Her joy,
but to protect it as well. As guide in the ways of Judgment, Mercy, and
Justice, I seek the Lady Azorinne's wisdom. I pray there is harmony between
these paths.
PK Wins
Jul 17, 2023|Lv 26|The Imperial Palace|Xarpu vs 1: [26] Suillesnu (100%, wrath)
Jul 18, 2023|Lv 37|The Outlander Refuge|Xarpu vs 2: [30] Gilafal (0%), [37] Suillesnu (100%, claw)
Jul 19, 2023|Lv 48|The Imperial Palace|Sulirye vs 5: [51] Rayangha (41%), [51] Icaeos (14%, crushing hand), [51] Mystrillania (18%), [48] Suillesnu (14%), [51] Ihol (11%)
Jul 20, 2023|Lv 49|Ruins of Maethien|Tennaxa vs 2: [51] Icaeos (7%), [49] Suillesnu (92%, claw)
Jul 21, 2023|Lv 51|The Outlander Refuge|Nephinae vs 3: [51] Icaeos (1%), [51] Suillesnu (42%), [51] Ihol (56%, claw)
Jul 21, 2023|Lv 51|The Outlander Refuge|Nephinae vs 2: [51] Ihol (39%), [51] Suillesnu (60%, bite)
Jul 24, 2023|Lv 51|Domain of Eternal Night|Seraphis vs 1: [51] Suillesnu (100%, disembowelment) *Disemboweled*
Jul 26, 2023|Lv 51|The Imperial Palace|Rohlovosso vs 1: [51] Suillesnu (100%, bleeding artery)
Jul 26, 2023|Lv 51|Forgotten Crypts|Ruvende vs 1: [51] Suillesnu (100%, poison)