Description
Short and stout, this little Gnome looks googly eyed around the room. Tangled
white hair streams and curls around her head, centering to a plump face. Her
mouth seems to be frozen in a permanent goofy grin, showing perfectly white
teeth. Her outfit, strange but simple, is a long and loose tunic, trailing
the ground behind her.
Role
Appreciation
Added Tue Jul 3 20:25:50 2007 at level 42:
Appreciation. So many people need to learn how to do it! Appreciate
everything--love, pain, loss, gain, rhymes, everything! I can't stop thinking
about how beautifully full Thera is--How each aspect, each tiny little niche
of every society in it, is beautiful.
The Fortress, they hate the Dark and Evil. That's their purpose, to destroy
the Evil and the Dark. Well, let's pretend they succeed with their goal. What
then? For someone to be "good" you must have someone "not good" to compare
them to, that's common knowledge. Imagine being born into that society, where
the Fortress rules, forcing ALL to be of the Light, since Evil has been
subdued. They'd be exactly like the Empire.
Or the Battle-Ragers, who hate Magi. If the Forsaken One long ago hadn't
helped Magi actually harm some of man-kind, then what would be of
Bolt-Thrower and his holy tablet? Nothing! You need each and every aspect of
Thera for it to be complete.
That is why I am of the Nexus, and that is why I protect Balance. Love,
passion, wisdom, and overall appreciation. I've heard some of the Island
complain, beautifully so, about how "Oh, I wish the Balance were okay so I
could do something else...", what else is there to do!? I view keeping
Balance as a lucky life-style of mine, I am so beautifully happy that I was
inducted.
Now when you do appreciate every single beautiful aspect of Thera, what do
you do? How can one stand to kill them to fix Balance? Those are questions
asked to me from young ones who disagree. For me, once again the answer is
appreciation. It sounds dark, evil, and some call it "eating off of both
plates", but I make friends and enemies as the Balance changes. It may be
hard to slay one, but the OVERALL Balance of Thera is more important than any
one life, mine included.
It's always nice to look at everything else and see their beauty, but what of
mine? Oh, I won't be modest, hehe, I'm gorgeous! I try to keep a constant
Balance with my Self, also. I never use Balance as a personal vandetta, and I
never get upset at a death(which is why I stay a constanct corpse!). Many
believe if one were to be completely Balanced in one's self, you'd end up
being apathetic. How beautifully silly! Apathetic is not how one would end up
in my mind, I'd like to say passion! Passion to the extreme, so much that you
have a love affair with existence.
I may sound silly, but this is how lil' ol' Xilia thinks.
Current stance
Added Sat Aug 4 18:22:50 2007 at level 50:
I've enjoyed my life so far, goodness I have! I've experienced many types of
people, situations, and so on. I'm just sad my life must end so soon. It is
my fault, of course, dying as much as I have. But that in itself is an
experience!
It's time for the vote, and this will show if the Island favors me as Lady
Rayihn did. I won't be sad if I don't make the position, as I'll serve the
Island just the same. I do wish some of our Keepers would focus more on
living for the Island than themselves. I've still seen quite a few anger when
they die or lose equipment, I do always try to convince them it's alright.
I've died for the Island many times, and I've loved it.
I do doubt myself at times, and I've been doubting myself more than usual. I
hope I've been a good Meter, and though it's been told to me, I know I could
be doing better. Lady Rayihn wishes perfect, Lord Daevryn that you are always
productive, and Lord Twist always bids improvement--And I try to fit each. I
just feel my little Gnome self is a bit too tiny. I can't defeat any Villager
unless their hurt, half-naked, and much younger than myself. I simply wish I
could serve the Island better...Somehow gain in strength. I suppose working
with applicants is the only way I'll strengthen the Island. And I'll keep at
it, quite fervantly.
A few of the Keepers have bid me speak with the Gods about gathering
Vitality, but I'm unsure. I doubt I'm held in much favor--and I'm not trying
to be modest. Many consider I throw it away, but I can't see any better death
than at the Island defending it.
I've never viewed myself as important, strong, intelligent, or anything. Just
a little bookworm who lives as she lives--which happens to be for the Island.
It feels natural, and I take pleasure in it. I do hope I've been a well
Meter, and that the next does better.